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on this being Beamer's Board.

But now that the message has been told, I take a deep breath and plunge forward. There is a ton of stuff that I want to pass on.

In time, I just may very well get to do that.

For those of you that do not believe Evil to exist, please go forth in your innocence and rejoice.

For those that have only read of Satan and believed, fear not any longer.

For those that have actually faced Satan, Rejoice as well.

For those that worship Satan, tough noogies. Life is a Bi**h.

The load is so much lighter now. Perhaps, sleep will be much better now.

For those that have read my postings (or rantings), I thank you. For those that care to judge me, you may contact me at
b-eamer@juno.com . I have nothing to hide.

For those friends and fellow journiers that believe in my story, may God bless you with a thousand years of kindess and love. May
you get to experience all the bliss that is available to you. May you see for yourself the grandier of your journey. May your journey be
a light and carefree one.

Namaste.
 

Posted as a reply to: Msg 121 by B_eamer

B_eamer..
by: marietta_x (28/F)
01/06/00 11:00 pm
Msg: 123 of 1075

That my friend is hard post to follow, as were all of those before it. The little pieces I have shared on this board pale in comparison to
all that you have brought to it, to us. I really am not sure what to say but thank you for giving so much of yourself to us here in this
special place.

As you know, true validation of one's experiences come from within, and those are the most important. I for one, am so very glad to
have you fighting on our side, helping to make the world a safer, more joyous place to live in.

Peace
Marietta
 

Posted as a reply to: Msg 122 by B_eamer

newhboy ..
by: marietta_x (28/F)
01/06/00 11:27 pm
Msg: 124 of 1075

Sounds like the butterflies was a beautiful experience to me! Was it a wonderful coincidence? Good question. Trust what your heart
tells you, not your mind.

I wish that I were able to define Oneness in a way that would help you, and me, to better understand how it is that we achieve it.
What you wrote about how you felt, so safe and peaceful in the moment that you didn't want it to ever end, the emotions.. it's
incredible isn't it? Such a deep feeling of connectedness to everything, the sand under your feet, the squirrel running up the tree and
the sky itself! Not to mention the sense of warmth and oneness from simply being alive! It goes beyond imagination.

I'm sure there is someone who can better describe or help you to answer your questions. I myself have only achieved oneness on a
few occasions, at least that is what I choose to believe it was. If not that, then what was it? Maybe truth, in it's purest form. That's
what it's all about..

Marietta

Oh, and as a point of interest, the tingling and levetating sensation you described are also known to be a very early stage when going
OBE...
 

Posted as a reply to: Msg 116 by newhboy

Marietta ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.)
01/07/00 01:31 am
Msg: 125 of 1075

What my postings have subjected everyone to that have read them is not an easy pill to swallow.

Somtimes one's journey goes in a very smooth and mellow ride, until they reach a point where your basic concepts and truths and
prior knowledege are put to the test or turned topsy turvey. At least, that is how it has been on my journey.

I think a whole lot of topsy turvey has come your way.

I am not sure if you have come to the realization yet that everything and everyone put before you is put there for a definite reason.
There is a reason I posted what I posted and there is a reason why you were fortunate or unfortunate (the Ying and Yang) enough to
have stumbled on to it.

Think of the vastness of the Internet. There is praobably close to ( God only knows) sites and places for you to wander through in
your journey. We each, in our own seperate ways, have found this particular spot. I am so thankful for this board, words cannot
describe. I am also very thankful that the powers that be have allowed for the postings to continue.

Why wasn't this board here, say five years ago? Because it wasn't time for us to meet yet. If you hadn't been here and posted in the
brave manor you did, I never would have had the courage to have posted what I did. It is all related and tied in together. Pretty
amazing, huh?

I am just so glad that is out there and I can move on from that. For those coming up behind us and reading that, it shall affect them as
well. There will be those that will not be able to accept what I have wrote. It is not time for them, yet. In time, hopefully, they can
return and read the postings again and begin to understand. You, have some understanding of what I endurded. I thank you for your
understanding. I prayed for your understanding.

I want so much to return to the gentle side of my path. Reexamining that particular part of my journey was not an easy thing to do.
Apparently it was necessary. I have learned from it. I Pray that you can digest the postings, learn what you can from them and move
on as well.

It's not that I will not answer questions of them. I shall. I just pray that one dosen't have to dwell on thase issues in order to move
forward in their journey. Again, thank you so very much for the understanding. It means a lot to me.

Namaste, Marietta x
 

Posted as a reply to: Msg 123 by marietta_x

An easier pill to swallow ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.)
01/07/00 02:01 am
Msg: 126 of 1075

After The defeat of my advisary, A thousand emotions ran through my soul. My world had been tossed upside down and I was in a
particular spot at the time where I didn't have much time to reflect. I had acccepted a job Recovering bowling alley lanes. Now there
is fun galore.

You basically get to spend anywhere from fiteen to twentyfour hours locked in a bowling allley with a couple of very different folk (I
am trying not to judge). You then get to spread vast quantities of a very strong chemical solution that fills the available air with toxic
fumes and get to work for another five or six hours. It was a real Hoot.

This went on for about a week right after the battle finished. The time frame was something like this: 5:00 am. I get to the rondevue
point for my new great job, which happens to be where Satan is situated. 5:05 am. Satan starts messing with me. 5:35 am. Satan is
captured and Ishtar finally returns to be able to communicate with me, thank God. 5:40 am. I knock on the door of the house and
venture in, hoping and praying that the battle is really over. 6:00 am. I am heading on a seven hour ride North.

I returned from this week in Bowling alley heaven (not). Some two months later, I am laying in bed, trying to get some sleep. This
next part is kinda hard to describe. I layed there with my wife sound asleep next to me, looking towards the ceiling. This piont of light,
spiritually speaking, comes to me from above. This light didn't light the room. I don't think it even lit me, litterally. Yet I could see it.
This light went through the ceiling, through the roof and ventured forth to the heavens. It seemed to broaden some what as it went
higher. I was able to discern this, all from the vantage point of my bed. I was laying there trying to understand and contemplate that,
when a most remakable thing happened.

In a spiral path downward I saw a head coming to me. I saw the hair, the ears, the smiling face and then it stopped at about the neck.
It was a glowing entity that was translucent. I could see the ceilng and the walls through it. It passed by me and another one came.
Again the hair, the head, the gentle smiling face. I could make out great details of these faces. I could see the lines in their faces, the
gentle curve of thier smile. One after another started appearing, each going past me and disappearing.

I somehow manged to look up past the immediate faces in front of me. This spiral strectched around and around all the way up. And
every few feet was another face coming towards me.

(cont.)
 

Posted as a reply to: Msg 125 by B_eamer

Pill two ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.)
01/07/00 02:21 am
Msg: 127 of 1075

After abvout ten or fifteen minutes of this I asked "What is this?" I was told that this was to be my army from this day forth. That any
time I was need their assistance, they would be there for my backing. I was to lead them to battle any further evil that should come
my way.

I must have layed there for another twenty minutes, studying each and every gentle smiling face as they approached me. Some
knodded, some winked at me. It was trully an amazing event in my life. I went to sleep with them still coming downward. I awoke the
next morning wondering how I was possibly going to go to work (now at a Hospital) and remain calm and not display the enourmus
joy and happiness I was feeling. I was again told that I can handle it.

I have loved that respone. (not) Use to be for years, I would ask how I am possibly supposed to do some of things that have been
asked of me in my journey. The response has always been "Cause I can handle it." That's it. No elaboration, no great plan. Just
handle it.

Well, I managed to go to work that day, but I did get some odd looks from some of the people I worked with. They never did ask
though. I just might have told them. Now that would have been a hoot.

Hopefully, that was an easier pill to swallow. I realize it stretches the boundries a bit more. I must state again though that I didn't ask
for any of this. That and if you think it is a trip reading this, you should try and experiencing this first hand some time. Make for quite a
posting on a spiritual board some day.

And yes, I have utilized my "Army" from time to time. Fresno is a lot less evil place thanks to them. At least a good chunk of it. But
that's another story.

Namaste.
 

Posted as a reply to: Msg 126 by B_eamer

Pill two ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.)
01/07/00 02:21 am
Msg: 127 of 1075

I was afraid of this ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.)
01/08/00 10:23 pm
Msg: 128 of 1075

That my posts would take the winds out of your sails. At least that is the feeling I'm perceiving. Please don't let that be the case.

Please contribute. I do so want to hear of your experiences. They have been so widly varied. I have some grand experiences, but in
my book, I'm amazed by even the oneness of the hummingbird.

And what of those crystaline beings? Pretty remarkable stuff there.

I was reluctant to share on a number of fronts, this was one of them. I don't want to ruin what once was here. C'mon guys.

Namaste.
 

Posted as a reply to: Msg 127 by B_eamer

B_eamer ...
by: marietta_x (28/F)
01/09/00 01:41 pm
Msg: 129 of 1075

The sails are up, and there is a mild breeze across the waters. The view is spectacular and I am just sitting back for a moment, taking
breather while I let the moment stretch.

Nothing has been ruined, only changed. Perhaps the discussion went a little further than anyone expected and finding a response to all
that is here is not easy. Accept the temporary silence of the moment as a compliment to the thoughts you have stirred in others. The
awareness you have awakened.

We're all still here, or at least I know I am..
 

Love and Light
Marietta
 

Posted as a reply to: Msg 128 by B_eamer

Going OBE??
by: newhboy
01/11/00 11:36 am
Msg: 130 of 1075

Sorry, I don't know the term "going OBE." Could you please -or someone else- explain what it means???

As for the butterflies episode, yes... It was a beautiful experience, mostly because it was totally unexpected. But I've got used to this
type of "coincidences." Throughout my life they have become an almost daily affair.
 

Posted as a reply to: Msg 124 by marietta_x

OBE stands for ...
by: marietta_x (28/F)
01/11/00 01:14 pm
Msg: 131 of 1075

Out of Body Experience..

I'm not saything that is what was happening to you, only that what you described is also described by many who have achieved the
OBE state.
 

Posted as a reply to: Msg 130 by newhboy

Thanks Marietta..
by: newhboy
01/11/00 02:01 pm
Msg: 132 of 1075

You're a constant source of information and positive feedback. May God bless you for that.

Out of body experience, I should've thought of that!! Is just that I'm an individual that has had no time to read too much about these
experiences and has only been recently that I've faced the fact that they're not going away and I might as well learn how to deal with
them, so I've gone back to meditation and that is helping considerably.

The wide range of experiences I've had over the years goes from deep relaxation to astral projection, premonition, telepathy, and
OBE. Unfortunatelly, since I've never felt the need for clasification or rationalization of these events, I've failed to document and
inform about these experiences and what they are. The internet has been a wonderful source of information. In this board I've read so
many of the events I've experienced myself and people like you -who are well informed about it- are doing and excellent job at
sharing with us your knowledge and greatness of spirit.

Thank you for your generosity...
 

Posted as a reply to: Msg 131 by marietta_x
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