Inside the Circle
by: wanderingspryte (35/F/Northern Virginia)
09/24/01 02:56 pm
Msg: 1 of 60
Many of us know...and it's still hard to do. Many of us think, yet cannot
find the words to say. We still our minds and gain a center
only to allow the dork in the SUV to get us condemning our brother/sister
again...and we know better. We watch with hearts so
heavy as the very people we love go farther from us...and as the world,
its leaders and humanity set off in another direction...
Have no doubt, we are One.
Have no doubt, we are Love.
Have no doubt, we are exactly where we need to be....
However, if that just isn't going to cut it for you today...have a seat
and spew, rant, question, console, life is real and sometimes just
freaky with negativity... ...let's re-gain our centers together, let's
step inside the circle for a second...to catch our breath...
Laura
Re: Inside the circle
by: wanderingspryte (35/F/Northern Virginia)
09/24/01 03:01 pm
Msg: 2 of 60
Yeah! My first topic...:)
Su...Marietta...Connie...this is the "real" board..okay?
Not that all the others aren't.
Yes, I have moved, and the new place is fabulous! Benjamin loves his
new room, and the new kitty cat..."Little Brother" is recovering
nicely from his 'operation' yes...that one.
So, although it's still overwhelming getting all of my new-house-ducks
to line up...quacky little twits...it's steady now...
Love to All....
~w.s.~
Posted as a reply to: Msg 1 by wanderingspryte
Re: Inside the circle
by: Beam_er (105/M/California, U.S.A.)
09/24/01 05:37 pm
Msg: 3 of 60
So perhaps this was the next step you were so paitently waiting on (The
Move)?
Just a thought.
Namaste Dear one.
Posted as a reply to: Msg 2 by wanderingspryte
Re: Inside the circle
by: sucarha (F/Florida)
09/24/01 11:43 pm
Msg: 4 of 60
Hey!!
Laura, so glad you are settled and pleased with the new surroundings.
Little Ben and the cat sound happy. :) Keep us posted.
First topic huh?
I love the get a seat and spew...lolol. Now, wonder why I took that
personal? *wink*
So tell me, do we get to vent in the circle, or come here to refuel?
Kidding....kidding...:):) Your introduction, however, was right on,
and what most of my "spewing" has been about. I only started one thread,
ever, the Humor Board and it is gone...felt bad about that.
We all had many, many laughs there. Not to mention creative writing
practices. :)
Love ya, spryte.... Su
Posted as a reply to: Msg 2 by wanderingspryte
Re: Inside the circle
by: marietta_x (30/F)
09/25/01 07:29 am
Msg: 5 of 60
Ahhhh a little growl (grr) at the SUV dork always makes me laugh ;)
When focus is all over the place a little unloading (tho preferably
not while driving lol) can go a long way to stilling the mind again.
Keeping the emotional chaos that weighs us down inside is self
defeating sometimes. It'd be nice if we could remain calm and centered
through even the most horrific of life's moments, but I think it's
unrealistic to believe we have to. Our emotional ups and downs are
our humaness, our teachers.
Mariettea
PS I drive a 4X4 ;) but I drive it as though it were a little Chevette
lol
Posted as a reply to: Msg 1 by wanderingspryte
Marietta
by: glocker49 (51/M/IDAHOCITY,IDAHO,USA)
09/25/01 07:51 am
Msg: 6 of 61
Understanding our human needs in spiritual growth and development can
give us help with our growth. I see understanding in what
you say.
May the force be with you, Joe
Posted as a reply to: Msg 5 by marietta_x
Re: Inside the circle
by: glocker49 (51/M/IDAHOCITY,IDAHO,USA)
09/25/01 08:04 am
Msg: 7 of 61
I see what you say! I get tired. Feeling sorry for myself. During these
times I see the anger and feel the fear. I think I suffer from lack
of association with a group of spiritual truth seekers. I do not have
a chance to get energised by being with a group.
May the force be with you, Joe
Posted as a reply to: Msg 1 by wanderingspryte
Beamer
by: wanderingspryte (35/F/Northern Virginia)
09/25/01 11:50 pm
Msg: 8 of 61
Oh, yes...part of it...definitely. Never the big picture all at once...(thank
God)
:)
~w.s.~
Posted as a reply to: Msg 3 by Beam_er
Humor???
by: wanderingspryte (35/F/Northern Virginia)
09/25/01 11:54 pm
Msg: 9 of 61
Su, how did that happen????
The adventures of Dave/Beck? The motorcycle trips? The football team?
ahhhh....
But you are right as well...it's applying, it's the experience of love
that teaches...it's in the doing that we share...so...let's teach and help
each other to go forward in love. Sometimes that requires getting through
the obscuring crap...damned crap.
:)
Love to you Su.
~w.s.~
Posted as a reply to: Msg 4 by sucarha
Truck driving X
by: wanderingspryte (35/F/Northern Virginia)
09/26/01 12:09 am
Msg: 10 of 61
It's all fine and dandy to unload...but ...my unloading...and yours
too, is different...I could maybe struggle to explain that, although I'm
really hoping I don't have to...but as I listen patiently to friends
discuss that bitch who is sleeping with so and so's husband while my
friend is doing a similar thing...see...my crap and unloading is about
how I wasn't silent when I should have been listening, I wasn't
patient...I became judgmental...keeping healthy boundaries...and that
verse in the ACIM that blew me away....lol.....you see?
I need to unload into safety...and love. ...and I'm hoping others will
feel safe to do so here as well...with people who will nod and
amen you...but who can give you more than...
"You think too much" as solace...:)
Like this horrific last 2 weeks...I have people wanting to tell me how
we can bomb the bejeezus out of Afghanistan...well...I work
with many middle eastern women/families whose hearts are ripped down
the middle with sons missing in New York, daughters
getting spit on in the public schools here, and relatives sealed up
in Afghanistan with no chance of getting out...my first instinct is to
run
to pakistan and (wo)man the refugee camps...bring blankets, toys for
the children...arms...of comfort...not destruction....
~w.s.~
Posted as a reply to: Msg 5 by marietta_x
Re: Humor???
by: sucarha (F/Florida)
09/26/01 07:39 am
Msg: 11 of 61
Seems Yahoo went on a purge.. :) Deleted some threads that were only
idle for three weeks. Lost Zao's "posters the invisible us"
too. :( Sad to loose the history, but also sad, because many of the
"old" posters are not around much anymore, if at all. Yet, they had
some wonderful things to add. Course, I am a sentimental ole fool,
and often did go back and read old stuff. Maybe most don't.
Oh ya, "damned crap"...but, always remember the greatest lessons are
often learned in the midst of a dung pile. :) As Chrissy
said..part of humaness. I kind of enjoy being real "human" at times.
Kind of think that is what we are doing "here". Experience the
ride, but grow in the Energy. Positive and Negative. Different degrees
of the same thing... LIFE. :)
Su
Posted as a reply to: Msg 9 by wanderingspryte
~ws~ ...
by: Beam_er (105/M/California, U.S.A.)
09/26/01 09:12 am
Msg: 12 of 61
Yes, thank God, we don't get the big picture all at once. I'm glad that
progress is moving forward for you. Hoping every thing is
working out good for you and your son.
Namaste
Posted as a reply to: Msg 8 by wanderingspryte
Glocker ...
by: Beam_er (105/M/California, U.S.A.)
09/26/01 09:17 am
Msg: 13 of 61
I know the feeling quite well Joe. I am fortunate that my little real
life inner circle is growing. Up to three now. Hoping that you have
some of the same luck. Take care dude.
Namaste
Many Streams
Posted as a reply to: Msg 7 by glocker49
Yahell madness no more ...
by: Beam_er (105/M/California, U.S.A.)
09/26/01 09:38 am
Msg: 14 of 61
These Yahoo groups do not ever get anything deleted from them. It is
a different format, but I think
It could prove very valuable as time goes by. Please sign up , ok?
http://groups.yahoo.com/group/ysmb
I am so tired of Yahell having its way with us. This is one way we can
keep alive the sometimes
vital wisdom dispersed here. All are free to join. Thank you.
Namaste
Many Streams
Understanding..
by: marietta_x (30/F)
09/26/01 10:25 am
Msg: 15 of 61
Spryte.. I do understand. And like you, I don't really want to explain
the details of that here. I think tho, my unloading has more to do
with being silent, sometimes having too much patience and not speaking
up when I know I should. And so the crap pile builds,
burying my shovel in it's mess somewhere. I could easily jump in my
4X4 and pull myself out, but it seems a rather harsh way of
dealing with it.
I went to the ACIM thread to try and find the verse you mentioned, but
since I've never kept up on that thread it's like looking for a
needle in a haystack :o) Could you point me to it?
*You think too much* .. sighs.. I hear that often enough myself. It's
a way of people telling us they don't have any finite answers. But
we already know that. I'm not looking for someone to give me answers,
but am trying to find them on my own.
While unloading in this safe and loving place, we can only expect what
we are ourselves willing to give. I for one, am not ready to
openly discuss all of the things I need to unload in a public forum.
And for that reason I realize that I will not recieve the direction I
need or hope to find. It's all about choices, isn't it.
I admire your position in the workplace and life, especially during
this difficult time. My husband is a firefighter, our first instincts were
to run to New York. It's not possible for us to do that. And so we
do what we can from home. Each member of the IAFF, here in
Canada and the United States wear black bands to cover their badges
for thier fallen brothers and sisters. We are also envolved in
fundraising efforts to help in the only we can, offering our love and
our prayers for peace. It's all we have to give..
Marietta
Posted as a reply to: Msg 10 by wanderingspryte
Re: Truck driving X
by: Zaotom
09/26/01 10:26 am
Msg: 16 of 61
Laura.....Windsong (God Bless ya, Connie) forwarded the most wonderful
message about 'bombing with bread and
butter'......irrespective of the 'leaders' (of Afganastan)...the PEOPLE
have nothing...including any balanced view of their 'Western'
brothers/sisters.....maybe if we gave them what their leaders have
not, they'd lose some of their fear of us......
Love,
Z
Posted as a reply to: Msg 10 by wanderingspryte
Re: Marietta
by: marietta_x (30/F)
09/26/01 10:26 am
Msg: 17 of 61
Thank you Joe, I'm trying. :)
Marietta
Posted as a reply to: Msg 6 by glocker49
Re: Yahell madness no more ...
by: nineninetynine (45/M/Baton Rouge)
09/26/01 07:11 pm
Msg: 18 of 61
Thanx, Beamer!
That's a great idea. It very frustrating to see so much wisdom be discarded
like an old shoe! Maybe now we can relax a little!
Namaste,
Dewey
Posted as a reply to: Msg 14 by Beam_er
Re: Humor???
by: deep_green_smoke (42/M/CA)
09/26/01 10:44 pm
Msg: 19 of 61
Hey Su,
sometimes, when there is some great dialogue and I'm feeling something
special, I just copy & paste some text to the hard drive and
file it. Nothing like going back 10 years from not and reading old
stuff.. hee heee...
make sure you back up the hard drive tho.
so...
all them there post that i erased... saved a few of them <ggg>
Posted as a reply to: Msg 11 by sucarha
Deep green...
by: sucarha (F/Florida)
09/26/01 11:42 pm
Msg: 20 of 61
Yes, I have saved some things, and printed a bunch too, but there was
in excess of 800 posts on that board...oh, how we laughed
and got downright silly..we had everything from traveling zoos, candy
factories, invasions of Florida by tanks, calendar shoots, jungle
warfare, football teams, car races, truck races, harley races, costume
contests and pumpkin patches with flying ducks and stolen
tv's..but what was so special about it was, at the end of the day after
all the wrangling, and discussion, heartaches, and pain, we all
would gather there and all the differences were forgotten..we just
enjoyed each other...only now, that it is gone, do I realize how very
special that board was. See we didn't just quote jokes or copy and
paste stuff..we all wrote the script. And, people that were at odds
over so many things elsewhere, were friends there. I am just realizing
how amazing that was. A sad loss to these boards, and a sad
loss at what could be..kind of goes along with your self-importance
post on another board.
Worst thing of all, it had only been about three weeks since it was
used, then in the light of all that has happened in recent days, it
seemed not a time to be facetious...
To be honest I think in that light, the Yahell Lords were quite unfair
to start deleting boards in a time period when everyone's mind
was on NYC. I usually don't complain about Yahoo. As for layout and
fluidity, and the fact that it is a free service, it still remains one
of the best message board forums. This incident, however, was not a
fair move.
And, we had a star...by the name of dave/beck! Geeze, I could cry. :(
Su
Posted as a reply to: Msg 19 by deep_green_smoke
Re: Deep green...and Sue
by: lilaweaver
09/27/01 12:23 am
Msg: 21 of 61
did dem ducks have wangs? see them wangs? must be ducks.... bless you
sue.... tat.
Posted as a reply to: Msg 20 by sucarha
SBPT
by: lilaweaver
09/27/01 12:25 am
Msg: 22 of 61
Laura, thank you.
Re: Humor???
by: metamorphery
09/27/01 02:16 am
Msg: 23 of 61
smoke, I have been doing the same. more than 100 pages worth. have we
written that much worth saving? does it bring that many
giggles, smirks, tears to reread it? in a way it's our his/herstory
Posted as a reply to: Msg 19 by deep_green_smoke
Weaver...
by: sucarha (F/Florida)
09/27/01 03:22 am
Msg: 24 of 61
:):) And, another tear..so good to know you are out "there". Thank You.
:)
Blessed, I am...blessings I return to you.
Su
Posted as a reply to: Msg 21 by lilaweaver
Re: Deep green...
by: deep_green_smoke (42/M/CA)
09/27/01 04:10 am
Msg: 25 of 61
tell me more about dave...
Posted as a reply to: Msg 20 by sucarha
Re: Deep green...
by: deep_green_smoke (42/M/CA)
09/27/01 04:27 am
Msg: 26 of 61
the trouble with these boards are the topics i guess. i'd rather just
see ONE new age board and keep everything contained.
sometimes, and sometimes not.
most of the time, a topic will start out as a topic and then digress,
which is good.... but they eventually loose steam (quote of the day)
and die. then a new one pops up like this one, or the one i created
this evening.
well, as i created it because i was blasted on the magick board over
on new age for going off topic... like who cares anyway, chill out
i say... so i created a new one starting off by quoting casteneda on
self-importance.. and i can't help but think, oh shit, another topic.
more dilution.
there are some stock traders i know that took over an unused stock message
board. they are up to 4000 posts now.... and yahoo
does not delete stock message boards.
maybe we can take over one (lol)
(or is that just more dilution?)
well, whatever, it's late here and i'm still up. i'm thinking of doing
a book someday blending my photography with some of the stuff
(well, all of the stuff) that i have been talking about ever since
posting on these boards. i don't know if it will become a reality or not,
but as i keep generating thoughts, i keep putting stuff into categories
on my hard drive. i woke up from a sleep thinking about totality
and god.... and NO.... i am not gonna create a new topic.... but i
will keep on reading books and growing forward. i just finished
walsches book number 2 today and i feel like doing something... like
posting here and watching what happens. life is a never ending
process of creation and experience, by conscious choice of course.
is beam_er's group the answer to this problem with yahello?
where's benthre been?
how's the hurricane cleanup (nevermind, i know, we cleaned up after
the northridge quake)?
are we warming the planet or just going through a cycle?
got milk?
Posted as a reply to: Msg 20 by sucarha
inside the circle of a homeless person
by: deep_green_smoke (42/M/CA)
09/27/01 05:00 am
Msg: 27 of 61
awhile back, i was driving over to pick up some transparencies that
were processed at the color lab. they were color duplications of
some ink on glass paintings that i do. taking the offramp and waiting
at a red light, i read a sign hung around a neck of a homeless
man. i see it all the time. the sign read:
HUNGRY
HOMELESS
NEED HELP
GOD BLESS
and i grabbed my wallet without seconds thought and saw that i had a
$1 bill and a $5 bill. i gave him the five. his eyes lit up wider
than the day he took his first step on his own, so it seemed, as he
thanked me in disbelief and sheer gratitude. he walked off that
street corner very briskly as he was done for the day
two days ago, a similar experience. an offramp coming home from work,
i see a man holding a very similar sign. his left arm was
amputated. i looked in my wallet and this time, see a few $1's, a $5,
and a $10. i knew i was gonna give him the five, but i stared at
the ten for a second or two, an internal debate, but decided that i
needed it for something i was to get at the store later on. i gave him
the five and again, his eyes lit up and he turned his head around in
circles giving me thanks. i told him to get a good meal. should i
have given the ten, heck, he was only expecting to receive the normal
chump change - a quarter, a dime, mixed media of nickels,
simes, pennies. for him, a five does not come everyday from a single
person but rather, from the collective few... perhaps the ones
who feel guilty they have more and he has none - i don't know.... who
am i to say.... let's find out...
i thought tonight, i could receive a good lesson perhaps, by joining
the circle of a homeless person for one full day. let me pick out a
street corner, dress up in my ragged ol' t-shirt i use to do home repairs
with, not wash my hair or shave in the morning before heading
out, and hold up a sign.... and when i am done in the afternoon, i'll
seek out a homeless person and give him everything i earned by
standing there on the corner begging for help.
i think there ius a powerful lesson there, one that i may try very soon.
(now, i need to get to bed!)
tagging out green...
by: wanderingspryte (35/F/Northern Virginia)
09/30/01 10:30 pm
Msg: 28 of 61
my puter is slow tonight...poor puter...
I've been trying to stop thinking about the past and the future and
just live in the present. I am beginning to believe and to understand
that this is really all that makes sense.
And...green...giving is the only way to go.
and sleep is a gift I am giving to myself...
Nightie Night...
~w.s.~
Posted as a reply to: Msg 27 by deep_green_smoke
Re: tagging out green...
by: deep_green_smoke (42/M/CA)
09/30/01 11:02 pm
Msg: 29 of 61
you stand correct
and tall
very tall
so very tall
with past come memories of pain and glory
with future come hopes of dreams and best wishes
innocent they are
they lead us quite astray at times
give yourself the present of the present
creation to expression
your life is here right now
unfolding
bending with the wind
glowing with the stars high above
standing tall
so very very tall
i am listening to an acoustic concert by REM
i always liked this song:
they call me the apologist.
and now that I'm at peak.
you know at first it really hurt.
we joke about these things.
I've skirted all my differences
but now I'm facing up.
I wanted to apologize for
everything I was. so
I'm sorry, so sorry...
did you understand me right?
the people here are good.
they tell me what I should have done
and offer what I could.
I'm good, all is good
all's well, no complaints.
when I feel regret,
I get down on my knees and pray.
I'm sorry, so sorry...
I live a simple life
unfettered by complex sweets.
you think this isn't me?
don't be weak.
there I go.
I'm so sorry.
thank you for being there for me.
thank you for listening, goodbye.
I can forfeit selfishness
I hope for you that you apply
this happiness
this peacefulness
I'm sorry, so sorry...
I live a simple life
unfettered by complex sweets.
you think this isn't me?
that's so sweet.
I'm so sorry
Posted as a reply to: Msg 28 by wanderingspryte
So, what happened....
by: sucarha (F/Florida)
10/10/01 10:54 am
Msg: 30 of 61
to this circle?
S.
Widening the circle
by: metamorphery
10/10/01 11:51 am
Msg: 31 of 61
I like the feel of "inside the circle"
implies a specialness we all could use
to combat the combat of war
Yet most don't feel a war
I don't really yet
not like I felt Nam
Haven't been on a plane yet
Only once so far couldn't walk freely
in a building where I used to go
no ID badge
Want to expand the circle of my life
and my work and my play
so becoming more particular
about my board writing
where I spend time, with whom
some friends here with whom
I want to stay, inside the circle
back to work lol
<<Yet most don't feel a war
I don't really yet
not like I felt Nam>>
Most don't feel a war yet because we have been doing what we are doing
since the Gulf War in 1990, or whenever it was. :) I pray
we do not have to live another Nam. Don't think we will. We will just
continue to shoot bombs off here and there to no avail. Just
returned from a plane trip. No difference, really. Few National Guard
here and there, only ticketed passengers allowed beyond
check points, otherwise nothing has changed.
<<...becoming more particular
about my board writing
where I spend time, with whom
some friends here with whom
I want to stay, inside the circle>>
I can relate..:) Only problem with that is then you are thought of as
an ostrich with head in the sand. :) Oh well, that is ok too. Better
to be an ostrich then a screaming eagle, I suppose. What will be will
be, and the feathered ones are ignored anyway, bigger prey out
there now.
S.
Posted as a reply to: Msg 31 by metamorphery
Re: Widening the circle
by: metamorphery
10/10/01 01:12 pm
Msg: 33 of 61
SU,hmm, thought by whom as an ostrich? In fact, it's just the opposite.
The ostrich is taking its head out of the sand, more toward the
eagle side. The point was not well expressed then, because what I meant
was that I'm choosing to stay connected to some circles,
even as I fly.
Only problem with that is when one person in a circle makes a shift,
the circle shifts too, inevitably. It's how we adjust that matters.
Maybe another one of BSG's symptoms of inner peach (oops, I'll leave
that typo!) could be an increased ability to adjust, go with the
flow.
Posted as a reply to: Msg 32 by sucarha
Re: Widening the circle
by: deep_green_smoke (42/M/CA)
10/10/01 01:33 pm
Msg: 34 of 61
why not just break the circle...
eliminate the notion of separateness
embrace the notion of unitedness
that we are all one
you can only change yourself
i can only change myself
if enough people begin to do this
swarms of people will do this
are we not evolving
(at a very slow rate)
yet are we not evolving
to see that everything really is interconnected
i think the sept 11'th tragedy was a HUGE wake up call
will humanity drop the ball or will humanity unite?
how large is that circle
if we let it widen to include all life and all species
then we have arrived
but until that day comes
we will carry on with the notion of "us against them" mentalities grounded
in the vice of fear and separateness.
love and fear - opposites
did you also know that evil is live spelled backwards?
there is a big big difference between
evolution
and
conscious evolution.
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