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Choices
by: hereonapass (58/F/Emmitsburg, MD) 12/19/99 10:55 am
Msg: 80 of 161
>up to our higher power and what ever the "great plan" may be for our particular existence<
Don't forget that the little "we" has some say in which direction to go. We may appeal to our higher Self or not for guidance, it is always available to us for the asking, but the self we think of as "us" is the one with the choices. That gets some of us into trouble, leaves some of us near the center until we're comfortable venturing onward, and urges some of us on to the "great adventure" of self discovery. Personally, I think all the directions are going to be pursued by all of us in some dimension or timeline, and our ultimate destiny is to be aware of all these grand adventures and be able to go on from there to even grander pursuits (but that is getting way ahead of things as we see them now). If we remember that our existence is rooted in Love and we are all Most Beloved, we will be able to enjoy our adventures instead of fearing them as much.

Keep trying to remember.
 

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For it begins ...  (Edited by Beamer)
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.) 12/19/99 9:43 pm
Msg: 81 of 161
I have thought long and hard. Have seeked advice from many channels. The bravery displayed before this post has certanly helped. I am still reluctant, but it is defintely not the first time in my journey that I have approached a matter such as this reluctanly. It is time ...

The first true spiritual matter I had which scared the he** out of me happened very near where I am living now. I have been given the gift of audioclairivoyance, speaking to those outside of the visual realm. Talking to spirits. Communicating with those that have moved on. I have had this gift all my life. I didn't ask for it and at times would have gladly given it up, but it is mine for ever.

I was sitting at home in front of the TV, minding my own business. I was about 30 years old. Had been seeking my path off and on. Had had some unique spiritual happenings in just the last few months. So, at the time I had a lot of questions.

I "recieved" the message to find some place dark and quiet. As sometimes happens, I put it off. Tried to shut it out. But the message was insistent. Would not be put off or go away. So I finnally threw up my hands and said "Fine."
Going out side at the time was dark, but not quiet. Dogs were barking. Most of the rooms in the small apartment were being utilized, lights on. So I ventured forth into the bathroom.

The bathroom was small. Sitting on the throne with the lid down, thank you, one was able to reach the doorknob and the light switch, which as it turned out was a very good thing. I entered, closed the door and took a deep breath, not knowing what to expect when I reached over and turned off the light.

I turned off the light at the same time I closed my eyes. I knew the room was to be pitch black, for there were no windoows and the door sealed very good.

I opened my eyes. In front of me, instead of total darkness, I saw pinpoints of light. It was if I was in the sky at night. They seemed to stretch out forever. Hundreds of little "Stars". I looked up, still sitting. Now the number seemed to reach into the thousands. "stars" were every where. I looked behind me. There should have been solid wall, but the lights went out in all directions. I was amazed. I was mystified, but not scared. More in awe. Until I looked down.

Below me strectched the same image. No floor. No feet that I could see. I wasn't even aware I had a body any more. All I knew for sure was that my bathroom wasn't in Kansas any more. I quickly reached for the light switch, hoping against hope it was still on the "wall", even though I was reaching out to the "stars".

Boom. Light. Glorious 60 watts of illumination. The wall in front of me, the toilet below me. The floor. I got up and out of there, pronto. My wife, still watching TV, asked if I had seen a ghost. To this day, after tons of questions I still don't know where I went or what happened, exactly. What was to follow though was every bit as remakable as what occured in the bathroom that night. But that, dear journey seekers, shall have to come later, perhaps.

I am not sure if this fits the requirement of what has been "asked" of me. For I have been "told" that it is time for me to share. Again, I appraoch this reluctantly. I am cautious. This is a secret which very few know of, up till now. I shall wait and see. Small baby steps. I now feel a great weight lifted from my shoulders. Perhaps, sharing my "burden" is the next step for me. I am hoping for the best here. Knowing that the compassion and understanding is around me. Hoping ...
 

May you all have a great Christmas and a unforgettable, but safe, new year.

 

Thank you..
by: marietta_x (28/F) 12/19/99 10:34 pm
Msg: 84 of 161
B_eamer, that is a wonderful, amazing and incredible sharing! I don't really know what to say other than thank you for sharing it. While reading the posts I felt my smile grow, I was warmed and touched by you're honesty. It felt very affirming for me, and familiar too although I'm not able to explain why. A strong sense of 'home' came over me while reading your description of the darkness and the "stars". As a child I had "stars" surround me every night as I went to sleep, no one could see them but me and so I was told it was my imagination. It wasn't.

I look forwarding to hearing more from you.

May there always be peace, and Light for all.

Marietta

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Your Weight Lifted
by: hereonapass (58/F/Emmitsburg, MD) 12/19/99 11:03 pm
Msg: 85 of 161
I'm so glad you feel lighter. I too felf a big smile on my face as I read your "installments". I don't know why though as I have had no paranormal experiences of my own, my exploration has been more intellectual. I was told in a "reading" that my path is a gentle one so I don't expect to have earth shaking experiences. Your adventure is very exciting. This place is warm and comforting as any security blanket I can think of. No matter how we choose to arrive at a common ground, if we believe in more than meets the eye, we can share here in fellowship of the spirit.

I salute you in your bravery of disclosure. May you continue in lightness and love. I hope you come to feel that your "burden" is a burden no longer in the sharing.

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Starentity... :)
by: avatarmundi (44/M/MI) 12/20/99 1:12 am
Msg: 86 of 161
Merry Christmas Star! Sorry to take so long to get back to you...
<<Do you see how there is no end and no beginning? Do you feel it?>> I have moments that are becoming more frequent when the whole world seems transparent and dreamlike...and sometimes I am struck by what seems to be a silence that over-rides my everyday chatter thoughts...I become more focused and yet detached. Everything seems suspended, hushed... it's a strange and yet wonderful feeling of 'Home'. The 'Silence' seems to speak to me, not in language as I understand it. I'm not sure how to talk further about this...

I sense/know that time/space is an illusion. Of course there's no way for me to prove anything, nor am I interested in attempting to do so. Timespace will continue to have a hold on us as long as we think or believe or fear that maybe...just maybe it's real.

The choice is either Gods Infinite Truth is real or this perceived world of limitation and apparent death is real... This is something every individual will have to confront for his or her self.

Merry Christmas!
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Thanks for sharing
by: avatarmundi (44/M/MI) 12/20/99 1:24 am
Msg: 87 of 161
Clairaudience? I hope it's a good experience for you. I'm glad you have some weight lifted from your shoulders...share more maybe?

Merry Christmas!
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Relieved too ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.) 12/20/99 4:41 am
Msg: 88 of 161
your response gave me some goosebumps. I am so glad that you were able to get a smile from the postings. You and Herron both. That is such a great response. Not at all what I expected. I can tell you, answering Mother nature was never quite the same for me in that apartment after that. Made sure the light stayed on as well.

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A Proposal
by: hereonapass (58/F/Emmitsburg, MD) 12/20/99 11:11 am
Msg: 89 of 161
Isn't it nice when our worst fears are not realized? I can tell you that through having so many positive experiences from the Universe that I have come to the conclusion that someone/something is trying to tell me that it's OK, things are really good if we will just let them be that. We can have good experiences rather than unpleasant ones and really there is nothing good or bad but thinking makes it so.

I propose that your infinite points of light experience could have been to illustrate to you the vastness of "reality" and if you found the experience unsettling it was not intended to be that. Sometimes our Higher Self forgets how easily frightened we become while in the human condition. Demonstrations that are meant to reassure us become exercises in terror but that is only our misreading of the experience.

I am very interested in hearing more installments of your very fine adventures. I hope you are encouraged enough to continue. I have had one experience in particular with a crystal entity and I was also told in the reading previously mentioned that I "listen very well" but I do not consider these items to be paranormal although they aid considerably in my understanding of the larger picture.

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I agree
by: marietta_x (28/F) 12/21/99 8:28 pm
Msg: 90 of 161
..with your proposal hereon. Very well put.

Well everyone, tis the season after all and I just don't have enough time for a proper response tonight. B_eamer I would love to hear more about the "stars" and your experience... I'm still smiling.

Joy and Peace
Marietta

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Merry days Avatar!
by: starentity (30/F) 12/21/99 9:05 pm
Msg: 91 of 161
Merry moments! Thank you for your wishes. I never watch the time and you never need to apologize my friend :)

The lucidity of life. Isn't it a beautiful place to be. I feel what you are saying and I can relate to it. The focused yet detached description is exactly what is happening more and more for me. A clarity of spirit. A peace from within. Where time and space do not matter anymore... The silence is giving you the answers. You have a true insight...

This world is filled with illusions and one can see only if one wants to. It would be an illusion to think you could prove or disprove it anyway :) I would rather continue the way I have been going and enjoy the human experience!

May you have a beautiful holiday. Merry days, moments, thoughts and love...
*Star*
PEACE TO ALL

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Ok, lets see how this flies ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.) 12/22/99 8:45 am
Msg: 92 of 161
Back a few post I mentioned about being accompanied for 44 years. I have a spiritual guide whose name is Ishtar. He apparently has been with me since day one, protecting and teaching me. Answering all my insipid questions. I love him and would be at a great loss if he and I were to ever part. I consider My wife my right arm. Ishtar is my left. Although I never have been able to get him to admit that he was the one that took care of my shelving unit, I got a perty good feeling. He has a rather warped sense of humor. I know there was one bomb of a movie by the same name. I kept asking if, when I first asked of his name, if I had it correct. It was about the same time the movie was out that I was venturing forth on my journey in a controlled manner. Prior to that it was kinda on automatic pilot.

I use the gender male with Ishtar only because he is very powerful, large, and a very good fighter. Yes, a fighter.

I consider myself a soldier of God. I was brought to this world for basically one pourpose, other than to marry and bring forth three children into the world. That porpose is to seek, find, detect and encounter Evil and to basically destroy it. I use every tool possible in my battles, including utilizing the power of my Higher power, and have had an extremly good success rate, Thank God. Wouldn't want to even think of the alternative.

The postings that I have made on this board have been of a Gentle side. But if necessary, I could divulge just how sly, dangerous, mean and slippery True Evil is. I avoid such discussions in length for many reasions.

1.) This is a subject matter which is not for everyone, as I have discoverd on this Board. Some entertain the Idea that evil is not real, never has been and apparently is mearly a creation of ones mind. I wish them the best in their blessed ignorance. (Probably gonna hear about that one.)

2.) This seems to be a board of a positive nature, of an educational manner. There is nothing positive about evil. The last thing I want is to educate on or promote evil.

3.) There are many other things that I would love to talk about. I have had numerous positive experiences which I would be glad to share, as long as the enviroment here is supportive, for I am still tenative. Although, this is a pretty deep plunge.

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I'll join you in your trouble, Beamer
by: doc_kramer (48/F/St. Louis, MO) 12/22/99 7:00 pm
Msg: 93 of 161
<<The postings that I have made on this board have been of a Gentle side. But if necessary, I could divulge just how sly, dangerous, mean and slippery True Evil is. I avoid such discussions in length for many reasons.>>

I believe I understand why you avoid this subject Beamer and I don’t blame you. However, it may be good protection for others just beginning their journey to understand that evil is an influence as much as good is an influence. Most on this board have experienced hard times and have found their way to their good/loving side and maybe don’t want to be reminded of those experiences. I don’t either for that matter. But like attracts like and now being in rapport with good often makes one forget the bad.

So my encouragement to you would be "go for it" Beamer. We all need an education. This is just one more leap for mankind. And an education should be complete and not emphasize one side versus another. If you would also put a note in regarding protection from the evil influences, that would be good, too.

I would like to make it clear that I do not believe in the “devil” but evil is another matter.

God be with you Beamer (and Ishtar, too!)

Doc

<< I wish them the best in their blessed ignorance. (Probably gonna hear about that one.)>>

Not ignorance Beamer…innocence.

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Well, seems to be flying ok, so far ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.) 12/24/99 2:57 am
Msg: 94 of 161
I shall follow your advice, doc. I had forgotten of those in need of knowing. I guess if one individual can defeat their advisary with this knowledge, then it would very well be worth it. Deep breath, exhale, centered, plunging forward: Ok, a Primer in evil. First off, you need to know thy self. To one's own self Thy be true is essential when dealing with evil. For with out this basis of knowledge, you may not be able to tell when Evil has gotten a foot hold, gained purchase. At times, Evil is extremly sly. Think of it as an oil slick on water. It is there, basically unseen, until looked at in the right light. There are times also, when evil hits you as a Mack truck. Of course, it is much easier to tell when you have encounterd evil, but one heck of a lot scarier. You may ask, what evil are you talking about? There exists in the world enities that are not of God's choosing. Spirits, if you will. Spirits that exist that mean to do you harm. Either spiritually, financially, socially, physically, or mentally. Either in an unobtrusive, round about manner Or in a very direct approach. Along with every thing inbetween. I have not spent a great deal of time psychoanalyzing their nature and asking why they do what they do, for that is not in my nature. Any more than a hungry cheeta is going to sit and have tea with a cute Impala lamb before consuming it for a meal. Detecting evil is not easy. I spent years training and with the aid of a great spiritual ally before truly being sucessful at indentifing evil entites. I can now walk down a street or pass someone in a building or parking lot and know that they harbor an evil entity. I use Ishtar for confirmation. I then usually leave it up to him to rid the entity. It is a painless process for the human. The recipient of my assistance is totally unaware of what has happened to them. No splashing of holy water. No involved, lengthy process. The entity is removed, allowing for the soul then to be free and opening the door for Gods love to wash over them. Of course, what happens then is up to them and the path they choose. I wish that I could offer more assistance in helping you develop powers of dectection to know for sure weather evil exists around or in you. Don't know how to do that. Anymore than Garth Brooks can sit down in a brief paragraph and teach you how to sing. Be strong in your faith with God. Ask his/her assistance. Seek fellowship. Evil hates fellowship of a strong positve spiritual nature. One of the strongest battles I had lasted for days and the answer to the sulution of how to beat the entitiy was to demonstrate the fact that I had fellowship of a church behind me. That was at least was enough to throw it off track and allow for its capture. One last bit of wisdom when dealing with evil: Be very very careful of what you ask for. You just may get it.

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Ergo...protection
by: doc_kramer (48/F/St. Louis, MO) 12/24/99 3:13 am
Msg: 95 of 161
Great job Beamer! For those who do not believe that evil exists they now have all the protection they need if hit head on by that mack truck. When lower spirits try to influence a quick prayer asking God for protection is all that is necessary. You are really an advanced spirit, Beamer. God loves you a great deal to reveal your guide to you. And you on the other hand have allowed this to happen...I'm amazed. I'm not that far yet. But soon I think. Still praying for the Love! doc

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Evil -- Thy name is Ego..
. by: windsong_1950 (49/F/SE Michigan) 12/24/99 9:00 am
Msg: 96 of 161
...Merry Christmas B_eam!!!
windsong

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interesting ..
by: marietta_x (28/F) 12/24/99 11:12 am
Msg: 97 of 161
You are a very gifted and blessed individual B_eamer, I'm so thankful to have had this opportunity to hear your sharings. I think that best piece of advice you offered against evil was 'to know thy self. To one's own self Thy be true..' On this Christmas Eve I want to wish everyone a joyous season, and a new year filled with Strength, Peace and Light. Know that the warmth shared in this board has stretched across the miles and touched many hearts. Peace, Marietta

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You guys ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.) 12/25/99 8:15 am
Msg: 98 of 161
Are without a doubt the best Christmas Present a Fellow Journier can ask for. You must remember, Marietta, if it hadn't been for the courage you displayed I would have never attempted these sharings in the first place. You are blessed as well. I just pray that what ever evil should be attracted to you come my way first. One's journey is hard enough with out having to deal with such hazards.

Namaste

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One thing that really bugs me ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.) 12/25/99 9:00 am
Msg: 99 of 161
Are those individuals that act as though evil has gotten a firm foothold on them and there is not an entity present for the removal. They just walk the earth making everyone's life around them miserable. There have been two individuals that I have met with that I firmly believe my journey was designed in such a way as to put them in my path. Both of these individuals wre placed before me for two reasons. To see haow they would treat me and to see if I could help them see the light. I unfortunatly was unable to help either. I was their last chance. (Again, I shall hear of this, I fear) If I wasn't successful, then the only path left for them was the journey to Eternal Damnation. This wouldn't happen until it was time for them to meet their maker, but it has already been decided that God has given up on them. Their souls, once they pass on, will not to see the face of earth or move amongst our earthly realm. The first instance, the lady in question didn't physically or mentally abuse me. She just went around proclaming to one and all that I was the Devil. Luckily, no one believed her. She refused to hear what I was trying to tell her. I even offerd her a Bible with passages highlighted and the Pages marked for her understanding. She returned it to me with some thing along the lines that It was surely a lie and the book was probably possesed. She didn't even open the book up. I even went so far as to explain to her about Ishtar. This just further convinced her that I was a devil. I too, gave up on her. In the last instance, a male, Claimed to be a christian repeatedly, as did the woman above. His treatment of fellow humans around him was far from being Christian. I sufferd mental abuse at his hands as well as having to aplogize for his behavior to fellow workers. I had to let them know that true Christians do not treat people as they were treated by him. I personally cared a whole lot less for this individual than I did the woman. I wish that on the celabration of Jesus's birth that I would have had a much more pleasant post to post, but I am starting to follow the lead presented to me by Ishtar. I have learned (the hard way) at times it is best not to question why I am to do what I am told to do. One other thing that I want to pass on is that I am not the only eyes and ears that God has placed on this earth to check up on individuals. I would have thought that God in his/her great wisdom could check on these people for him/herself. I guess that she/he does for a certain percentage of the time, but needs a more personal intimate knowledge of the person in question for last judgement. I am just guessing at this last part. I don't know why I get to meet these wonderful human beings, but I certainlly hope that this last dude is my last assignment of this sort. These people just were no fun at all.

I wish one and all a Glorious Christmas and Again wish the best for the New Year.

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Hummingbirds
by: starentity (30/F) 12/26/99 2:25 pm
Msg: 100 of 161
On Friday afternoon, my husband and I went outside to feel the nature around us. A beautiful hummingbird was drinking the sage nectar. I watched him for about 5 minutes- when he flew staright up to me(I was pretty far from the sage) about two feet away and starred at me. Then he flew closer.... and then closer again. He stood in mid air directly less than an inch from my face for about 15 seconds staring at me and I could feel a connection. I suddenly felt safe... I can't explain it, but I felt blessed at that moment. I was literally speechless. Peace and Light Always! *Star*

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Pretty awsome Star ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.) 12/30/99 8:16 am
Msg: 103 of 161
I have had a very few little visitations by hummingbirds, but nothing like that. I think they are a curious lot, sort of like dolphins. Being an inch from your face with that beak pointing at you, wasn't that a little scary?

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Your welcome..
by: marietta_x (28/F) 12/30/99 9:48 am
Msg: 104 of 161
Those that ask will find the answers that those who think they already know may never have. By thinking that we know all there is to know places limitations on our thoughts, thereby hindering our opportunites for growth. So by all means, ASK! I have to say, I was pretty cautious when first posting here too. Other boards are not quite as freindly or accepting of experiences such as ours. I find myself coming to this board if only to read and feel a lift, if not to post. Regarding hummingbirds.. I had one visit me every day this summer at 1:00pm, everyday. It would stop at my window for anywhere from 30 seconds to a minute then fly away. In the four years I have lived here, it was the first one I've ever seen. Beautiful.

Marietta

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omnieye
by: marietta_x (28/F) 12/30/99 9:52 am
Msg: 105 of 161
.. sounds like you've experienced 'Oneness'. What an amazing feeling that is.

Marietta

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Oneness ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.) 1/2/00 10:42 am
Msg: 106 of 161
My journey has brought me into the world of Retail. I have had numerous experiences lately of having oneness when gazing at an Infants eyes. They lock on to me in such a strong manner and I return their gaze. Their little heads swivel or turn to get better contact with me. Then, its almost for the next moment or two that is all I can see, is those amazing orbs, reaching out for connection. All else fades away, sort of. It is awful hard to put into words the connection I feel with these tiny humans just on the very start of their next journey.

Namaste

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Dear lord ...
by: B_eamer (5/M/Calif.) 1/2/00 11:03 am
Msg: 107 of 161
I want to thank you for the bountiful spiritual feast I have had today. This board you have created is truly an inspiration that I carry with me throughout the day. The Spirits that you have gathered here are an absolutely amazing bunch and growing in leaps and bounds. Thank you God all mighty for all the very special ways and experiences that you have put before me and thank you so much for all the love and enjoyment I have gotten from this little corner of the Internet. What a truly blessed way to start out this New Year. I truly hope that all will feel the special blessings and Love that I feel from you. In God's name I pray.
Amen

Namaste.

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Beam......
by: sucarha (56/F/Sarasota,FL) 1/2/00 11:11 am
Msg: 108 of 161
A Beam of Light, you are......Amen Peace and Love, Sucarha

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